As I spoke, I was treating Gu Yuan's wounds. This time, I didn't act in a flurry as usual. Instead, I calmly cleaned his injuries and bandaged them up.
I didn't even shed a tear, for I knew clearly that no matter how sad I was, the things had already happened. There was nothing I could do to change them. It was better for me to face everything bravely.
When I finished treating all his wounds, Gu Yuan still hadn't woken up. His face was as pale as paper. He just lay there listlessly in the bed, unable to open his eyes at all.
Gu Yuan, I've done all I could. The rest depends on you.
I tucked the quilt in for Gu Yuan and then was about to leave when he suddenly grabbed my hand.
"Don't leave, don't leave..."
I looked down at him, thinking he had woken up.
"Don't leave... I'm really so scared..."
He wasn't awake. His eyes were tightly shut, his eyeballs rolling constantly. Big beads of sweat oozed from his forehead.
He must have dreamed of something scary. I wanted to remove his hand so that I could wipe the sweat off his forehead.
But as I gently moved my arm, he held on tighter.
Although he was extremely weak now, he had quite a bit of strength. With this tug, I, completely off - guard, was pulled into his arms.
"Ah..." I let out a startled cry. I propped my hands on both sides of Gu Yuan's shoulders, afraid of pressing on his wounds.
I just stared down at him like this. It seemed like I hadn't looked at him so intently for a long time.
This time, there was no longer the former arrogance and dominance on his face. Instead, he looked very cowardly and timid. He held my hand tightly, as if he was afraid of losing his most precious thing.
After holding myself up for a while, my arms started to give out. But when I tried to leave, his two hands tightly held my waist and refused to let go no matter what.
I let out a heavy sigh and thought to myself, forget it. I didn't want to struggle anymore.
So I laid my face on his chest, slowly closed my eyes, and unconsciously fell asleep on his chest.
I slept extremely soundly this time, just like in a war - torn era when someone you trusted very much was keeping watch for you. You didn't have to be afraid of the enemy's intrusion at all.
I slept until late in the morning. If someone hadn't been pulling the curtains, I might have continued sleeping.
I rubbed my sleepy eyes and looked towards the window. I saw Gu Yuan standing there bare - chested, gently pulling the sheer curtain to block the sunlight.
When he saw that I was awake, he turned his eyes and gave me a charming smile that could kill.
"Did I wake you up?" His voice was so seductive.
I slightly curved my lips and shook my head, saying, "No."
"Do you still want to sleep a bit more?" he asked again.
I shook my head again, raised my hand to tidy my hair, and tied it up carelessly with a hair tie.
He turned around and pulled the curtain open again. Backlit, he was like an angel, so handsome that it was breath - taking. For a few seconds, I was completely in a daze.
It wasn't until he walked behind me and gently pulled down the messy ponytail I had tied that Gu Yuan ran his gentle hands through my hair, combing it smooth bit by bit, and then tied the hair tie for me.
I bit my lower lip and for a moment forgot to refuse. After all, we were no longer boyfriend and girlfriend. Such an intimate action was not appropriate in any way.
After he tied it up, I gently moved my body and put some distance between us.
I slightly pursed my lips, lowered my deep eyes, and a trace of disappointment flashed across my face.
"Lanlan..." / "Gu Yuan..." We both called out each other's names at the same time.
"You go first," I said awkwardly.
Gu Yuan gave me a gentle smile: "You go first..."
I didn't decline anymore. I softly asked, "Is your injury better? Does it still hurt?"
"It's better. It doesn't hurt much either."
I nodded slightly. It seemed I had nothing else to ask.
"Then I'll go out. You have a good rest," I said as I got out of the bed and was about to leave.
Gu Yuan called me back again.
"Lanlan... I'm sorry..." He was apologizing to me again. These days, I lost count of how many times he had said sorry to me. This was no longer the Third Master Liu I knew.
My body stiffened, but I didn't respond. He walked around me and stood in front of me, continuing, "I'm sorry about the baby..."
"Baby? Don't be joking. Do I have a baby? I've never even seen what the baby looks like. How can I say I have a baby?" I let out a soft laugh at Gu Yuan. There was indeed a bit of complaint in my words.
But I wasn't complaining about him. I was complaining about myself. Since I failed to protect the baby myself, what right did I have to blame others?
"It's not that I didn't want to keep the baby. Actually, I already knew you were pregnant at that time. But your soul was already burned to pieces in the Soul - Refining Cauldron. If you had the baby, I'm afraid you would have..."
Gu Yuan suddenly stopped here. His shoulders trembled. It was obvious that he didn't want to say the rest.
But I understood. My fragmented soul wouldn't have been able to support me until the baby was born. I would have died, so he had to get rid of the baby.
Gu Yuan took another step forward, grabbed my shoulders with both hands, and said affectionately, "In my eyes, you are more important than anything. So I don't regret it. If I had to choose again, I would still do the same."
Since he had said so much, what else could I say? All he had done was to make me live well.
"I see. Thank you. I will live well from now on," I said as I spread my arms and pushed his hands away, then turned around and walked out of the door.
Gu Yuan still stood there. I didn't know what he was thinking at the moment.
I really didn't know how to face him. First there was Bai Qi, and then our baby. I really couldn't bear his deep affection.
I turned around and went downstairs. When I got to the dressing room and was about to change my clothes and leave, I heard someone knocking on our door.
Normally, few people would know where my current home was. Only those close to us would.
I originally thought it might be Jun He. But then I thought, Jun He would never knock on the door so politely. It would be good if he didn't just go straight to the second floor.
If it wasn't Jun He, it was probably He Bi. I opened the door of the cloakroom. Since Gu Yuan hadn't come downstairs yet, I didn't think much about it. I quickly walked to the door and opened it.
However, when I saw the person in front of me, my just - calmed mood was completely disrupted again. I really didn't want to see him at all.
My face became extremely serious, and my cold eyes met his.
I asked coldly, "Who are you looking for?"
The person opposite me first smiled at me, then said in a soft voice, "Is Yuan'er... here?"