"So you mean that my second possession of Chi Yu's body wasn't an accident, but something someone deliberately arranged?"
"Not exactly deliberately arranged. It's just that the obsession was too strong, and it happened naturally."
Seeing that I didn't quite understand, Granny Meng further explained to me, "Let me ask you, did you suddenly possess Chi Yu's body when he was in a critical moment or in life - threatening danger?"
I recalled the situation at that time. It seemed to be exactly the case.
"Yes, it was like that that day."
"That's right... That's the reason why you suddenly possessed his body again."
I didn't say a word but waited for Granny Meng to continue.
"When in danger, just because he had you in his heart, even in the most desperate situation, what he most desired was to see you. That deep - seated longing was subconsciously perceived by you, so you appeared by his side again."
"You mean that my second appearance was because Gu Yuan missed me so much. That means when I first appeared, he already knew I wasn't Chi Yu, and he still does now?"
Granny Meng nodded, indicating that I was right. In fact, Gu Yuan had seen everything clearly, but since I didn't say anything, he didn't want to expose it.
At this thought, it was as if my soul had been struck by lightning. My whole body twitched with extreme pain.
I remembered that after our first meeting, when I was about to leave with A Yin, Gu Yuan had said to me, "Can't you stay?"
Previously, I thought he was talking to Chi Yu. It turned out that those words were meant for me. All his actions and even showing his true form as a silver dragon were because of my unexpected appearance.
It was the same this time. He had clearly recognized me. That day, he almost called out my name.
But I stopped him abruptly. I told him that I was Chi Yu, that I was Chi Yu.
He didn't call out my name again but really addressed me as Chi Yu.
Gu Yuan, you fool. You clearly knew everything in your heart but were afraid of hurting me, so you endured everything silently.
At this thought, my nose inexplicably turned sour. Souls are supposed to have no tears, but at this moment, I didn't know why, but my eye sockets felt warm.
Granny Meng raised her right index finger and gently swiped it between my eyes. Two hot tears rolled down from my eyes. As they slid across my cheeks, they turned into two glistening lights and flew into Granny Meng's hand.
"What's that?"
"Everyone knows that souls have no tears because they haven't truly tasted the feeling of reluctance. All the deceased, seemingly without obsessions, will surely feel a lot of reluctance when they stand on the Terrace of Parting and look back on their lives from birth to death. The reluctance shown at this moment is the most genuine tear, which is also the key ingredient of the Soup of Forgetfulness. You shed tears just now because of your reluctance towards Gu Yuan."
"Since both of you are reluctant to part with each other, do you still want him to drink the Soup of Forgetfulness? If he drinks it, he will forget all his past. It won't be easy to remember the past, especially for you. Your name has already started to appear on the Stone of Three Lives. After the gilding is formed and you find the Second Prince to break the Peach Blossom Curse, you two can be together forever. But if you really let him drink this bowl of Soup of Forgetfulness, the name that is about to form on the Stone of Three Lives will probably disappear completely, and your name will never appear again."
"Never appear again means that Gu Yuan and I will never be able to renew our past relationship?"
"Yes, even if you return to your world, the result will be the same."
Suddenly, I felt weak all over and almost fell.
Seeing my state, Granny Meng actually showed a hint of pity. Who said that Granny Meng, who was used to seeing life and death partings, had become heartless? At this moment, at least she was gentle towards me.
"Girl, infatuation can be diluted over time. I've lived here for ten thousand years. All the infatuated men and women will eventually be defeated by the passage of time and choose to let go. In fact, you don't need to do anything. As long as you leave, and he doesn't see you for a long time, he will surely let go of the past and start a new life."
Granny Meng was only half - right. We were infatuated, but time would never dilute his feelings for me. Otherwise, he wouldn't have searched for me for a thousand years because of an obsession without any clue and almost mistaken Man Yue for me.
I was the same towards Gu Yuan. I was truly reluctant to part with him, but at this moment, I was also extremely helpless.
Even though I was so reluctant, compared with Gu Yuan's life, it was nothing.
I turned my eyes to the River of Forgetfulness. The river was glowing with a faint green light. It turned out that when the water of the River of Forgetfulness was mixed with the tears of reluctance, it could become a bowl of Soup of Forgetfulness.
I stood on the Naihe Bridge and looked up at the Kongming lantern. Its orange - red light was still so bright and dazzling.
I had already made up my mind in my heart: "Please grant me a bowl of the Soup of Forgetfulness, Granny Meng..."
This time, Granny Meng didn't try to persuade me anymore. She gently flipped her hand, and a familiar porcelain bowl was in her hand.
She placed the porcelain bowl in my hand and put the two tears I had shed just now into the bowl.
Then she poured in the water of the River of Forgetfulness. The originally dark - green water of the River of Forgetfulness became extremely clear, just like a bowl of plain cold water.
"Take it. This is only once. There won't be a next time..."
My eyes flickered slightly. I held the bowl of Soup of Forgetfulness with both hands, my fingers tightly gripping the edge of the porcelain bowl and constantly rubbing it. The tenderness in my eyes appeared again.
At this moment, my tears were like broken pearls, pattering into the porcelain bowl in front of me.
I held the porcelain bowl, knelt on both knees, and respectfully kowtowed to Granny Meng.
Then I turned around and walked back the way I came. When I reached the grove of crimson spider lilies again, I silently chanted the name of the Earth God in my heart.
My body gradually became transparent. When I looked back, Granny Meng had disappeared beside the Stone of Three Lives...
...
"Girl, wake up. Get up. The sun is shining on your butt." A noisy voice came from beside my ear. I hadn't slept for five days and five nights. His shout really annoyed me.
I've always had a bad case of morning grumpiness. Half - asleep, I reached out and waved something beside me without knowing what it was. I didn't know where I hit, but the noisy voice turned into a howl.
This scream swept away all my drowsiness. I sat up abruptly and looked in the direction of the sound.
At this moment, the Earth God was covering his crotch and hopping around on the ground.
I immediately felt extremely embarrassed. Could it be that I hit his private parts?
"Sorry, sorry, Earth God. Are you okay?"
Seeing that I was awake, the Earth God immediately straightened his back, his face turning as red as a pig's liver.
"What could be wrong with me? But you're going to be in trouble!"