When Xu Tingyu heard these things, she felt something was off.
Given her personality, if this child wasn't supposed to be born, she definitely wouldn't have kept it.
After all, according to what they said, she had no feelings for Qi Shifeng. It was just a fake marriage, and she was framed. So this child shouldn't have come into the world.
If the parents had no feelings for each other, bringing a child into the world would make the child so pitiful.
They couldn't make such an irresponsible decision just because the child had no right to choose.
And Qi Shifeng was the same.
If it was a frame - up and he had a lover, how could he explain the birth of this child to his lover?
This was so unreasonable. Moreover, she had gone abroad right after giving birth to the child.
Suppose, just suppose, this child came into the world by mistake and she, out of a sudden burst of maternal love, insisted on giving birth to him.
How could she possibly give up the custody?
In a custody battle for a newly - born child, she would surely win...
In short, the whole thing was full of irrationality.
At that time, she didn't ask any more questions after hearing it because she didn't feel anything at all. It was like listening to someone else's story.
If she thought about it for too long, her head would hurt.
Now, the other person involved in this matter was right in front of her. She was waiting for the right answer.
Seeing that she didn't say a word, Qi Shifeng thought she didn't believe him.
His eyes turned even redder. When he leaned over to look at her, a scalding tear even fell and landed on the corner of her eye.
Her long black eyelashes trembled as if that tear had rolled down from her own eyes.
But her expression was so calm. She even raised the corners of her eyes slightly, and a hint of sarcasm gradually welled up in her eyes.
"I don't remember what happened back then. I can only piece together the truth bit by bit from other people's words and the Internet.
"If someone deliberately confuses the facts, I won't be able to tell, just as you pointed out at dinner. I'm really not that free.
"However, you, the person involved, don't seem to have any intention of explaining it to me, do you?
"You also treat me like a fool. You helped them deceive me and then blamed me for being heartless. Qi Shifeng, I believe now that there's really no love left between us."
She just stared at him quietly and said every word.
Qi Shifeng's expression changed from being aggrieved to shocked. Finally, he gradually lost under her gaze.
He buried his face in her neck, closed his eyes, and the burning tears slid across her skin and fell into the sofa.
"I love you, Tingyu. I love you, but I woke up too late. I've done so many things that I'm sorry for you.
"By the time I realized it, I had hurt you for too long. If you knew everything, you would hate me.
"I'm sorry, really sorry."
Why did he agree to Qi Ye's request?
Apart from wanting Xu Tingyu to make a new choice without worrying about Youyou, it was also because he was afraid.
He was afraid of letting her remember those past events.
She had lost her memory due to an injury. Although she didn't forget everything completely, she had forgotten about him.
The doctor said that people had a self - protection mechanism. Once the sadness exceeded a certain threshold, this mechanism would be triggered.
The fact that she had forgotten him was the best proof that all he had brought to her was pain.
Xu Tingyu didn't expect him to cry.
She even didn't expect that the reason he always evaded the topic was that he had made many mistakes before and was afraid that she would know and remember.
She couldn't help but raise her hand and touch his face.
Her soft fingertips wiped across his eyes. The moisture on her fingertips seemed to ignite them.
Did he hurt her a lot in the past?
Did they really love each other?
If there was no love, where did the hatred come from?
She didn't know how to ask for a moment.
The two of them just hugged each other like this, and no one said a word.
She didn't know how long it had passed when Xu Tingyu heard her phone beep.
It was the sound of a new message.
As if waking up from a dream, she immediately pushed Qi Shifeng away, walked over, and picked up her phone.
"Tingyu, are you asleep? I can't fall asleep. Can I come over and chat with you?
"Just like when we were in school. How about buying some barbecue and having a late - night tea party?"
It was a message from Chen Chunyao.
She didn't reply to the message about Du Jiran's identity, but she sent two messages asking to chat so naturally.
For some reason, Xu Tingyu didn't reply in the end.
Instead, she put down her phone, turned around, and looked at Qi Shifeng again.
"Qi Shifeng, no matter what, you shouldn't have deprived me of my past.
"Whether it's good or bad, it's my path. I may have made wrong choices, but I'm definitely not regretful."
Her memories of the past were missing and chaotic.
The past they told her didn't make her feel anything. It was like listening to someone else's story.
She wanted to find back her own past, even if it was all pain.
Qi Shifeng looked at her from afar and gave a bitter smile.
"It's because you don't remember that you can be so sure."
She had told him personally that she regretted marrying him.
If she remembered the past, she would probably regret remembering it too.
Xu Tingyu knew that he wasn't going to say anything.
But those things couldn't be explained in just a few words, so she took a deep breath to calm herself.
"Then I'll change the question. Have I never spent time with Youyou? Does he not even know I exist?"
When she mentioned Youyou, it was like there was a hole in her heart. The pain made her voice weak.
Seeing that she really cared most about Youyou, Qi Shifeng once again verified what Qi Ye had said. A pang of pain shot through his heart.
But this time, he didn't evade. Instead, he said, "He knows. He likes you very much."
He took out his phone, opened the photo album, then retrieved a hidden and encrypted photo album from it, and handed the phone to Xu Tingyu.
As soon as Xu Tingyu realized what it was, she rushed over immediately.
She staggered a bit because she was too excited, but her hand holding the phone was steady, as if she was afraid of dropping it.
On the phone screen was a photo of her and a little boy.
They were holding hands, standing in front of the amusement park, smiling brightly at the camera.
She traced Youyou's eyebrows and eyes with her eyes.
This was the face she had seen many times in her dreams, but every time she woke up, she couldn't remember it.
Now seeing the photo, without anyone telling her, she was sure that this was Youyou.
She was also absolutely sure that she must have loved this child very much. No, it was extremely, extremely, extremely love.
It was definitely not what they said, that this child was a mistake.
She must have loved him very much since she knew she was pregnant.
Because even now, although there was no memory of him in her mind, she could feel the surging love.
She stared blankly at the photo, and tears fell involuntarily.
"So, I really never gave up on Youyou, right? I've always loved him, right?"
After confirming that she must have loved Youyou very much in the past, she seemed to have taken off a very heavy burden.