"Have you said enough?" Ji Feiyu's eyes were almost spitting fire. She pinched her sister's chin and slapped her again.
Her sister had her eyes tightly shut and dark circles under them at this moment. Only her face remained fair. She tilted her head back, trying to break free from Ji Feiyu's grip while stubbornly saying, "No, I just have to say it! I really don't understand what's so good about you. Why does the grand tutor like you?"
Hearing this, Ji Feiyu was suddenly stunned. When she was about to strike again, she stopped herself abruptly. Suddenly, she kind of understood why her sister hated her so much. So she tentatively asked, "Do you like the grand tutor?"
"So what if I do?" Her sister said quite calmly.
So that's it. No wonder she mentioned the grand tutor again and again!
But Ji Feiyu suddenly felt that this fight was meaningless, because the grand tutor's feelings for her were not those of a man for a woman, but just those of a teacher for a student. Was her sister even jealous of this?
Ji Feiyu couldn't help asking, "Then does the grand tutor like you?"
"Of course he should like me!" Her sister said confidently.
Watching her deceive herself like this, Ji Feiyu suddenly had a dark thought in her heart. She couldn't help but expose her, "You're lying! The grand tutor can't like you. When I was a child, the grand tutor said that you were of improper conduct and would never achieve great things. Otherwise, why was he so strict with you? He told me that being strict was to lead you onto the right path! Because you've been a villain from start to finish!"
"You're talking nonsense. The grand tutor wouldn't be like this!" Ji Feiyu's sister shouted in disbelief.
But Ji Feiyu continued to provoke her, "I'm not talking nonsense. Otherwise, how do you think I know the weakness of your martial arts? The grand tutor told me. He said he never liked you and that you were annoying!"
"You're lying!" Her sister struggled to break free from Ji Feiyu, then got up and was about to shoot the hidden arrow in her sleeve. But Ji Feiyu picked up the silver spear beside her and stabbed at her.
That spear carried three parts of her resentment and seven parts of her hatred. Her sister let out a whimper. Before she could even scream, she gave Ji Feiyu a tragic smile. That smile carried three parts of sadness, three parts of hatred, three parts of relief, and one part of unwillingness.
Ji Feiyu watched her sister slowly fall. Suddenly, she felt that time had been stretched, and everything had become extremely slow.
Was it all over? Ji Feiyu looked back at Yong Yaxuan who was still sitting on the ground, then slowly walked towards him.
"Are you okay? What's wrong with your eyes?"
Yong Yaxuan felt Ji Feiyu's hand touch his face. He unconsciously took a step back and whispered, "You still got angry for him?"
Ji Feiyu's hand stopped in mid - air. She suddenly didn't know how to express her feelings.
Seeing that Ji Feiyu didn't respond, Yong Yaxuan smiled softly. He stood up from the ground. His figure looked a bit desolate. "If it was me who died, would you be this angry too?"
Ji Feiyu couldn't help but grab him. "Why do you have to ask such a silly question? Don't be provoked by my sister. You've always been the only one in my heart!" Looking at his appearance, she suddenly started to feel nervous. How had things become like this between them? What had they said to him when she was away?
"I only ask if it's the same?" He ignored Ji Feiyu and slowly walked back to his seat.
"Of course it's not the same. I'd die for you!" Ji Feiyu couldn't hold back the emotions in her heart anymore. She rushed forward and hugged him from behind. Her voice was a bit choked.
He was stunned for a second, then stopped walking. He responded to her with a deep silence from his back.
Ji Feiyu hugged him and felt as if her heart was being slowly torn apart. He had never shown her such a vulnerable side, which made her think that as long as he was there, he could hold up a sky for her. But now...
Yong Yaxuan let out a soft laugh. He slowly pried Ji Feiyu's hands off and said word by word, "You can go. Don't feel guilty. I'll give you the freedom you've always wanted."
His words made a loud noise in Ji Feiyu's mind. It was as if thousands of birds had flapped their wings and taken off at the same time, then fallen at the same time, and the world had returned to silence.
His gentle voice rang in Ji Feiyu's ear. He said, "All the people you love died because of me. I don't deserve your forgiveness anymore. Cheng Xuan, Jin Se, our unborn child, and Lin Zhiran. You got angry for each of them and left me. You must hate me to the core in your heart."
A huge rock suddenly hit the originally calm lake. Ji Feiyu's eyes were filled with tears. She shouted at him, "No, it's not like this!"
But Yong Yaxuan seemed not to hear her. He continued, "Your feelings for me should not be love, but just a habit, right? You just thought I was good to you, so you followed me. In fact, you've never fallen in love with me, right? So you didn't mind me being with other women, right?"
"No, it's not like this!" Tears streamed down Ji Feiyu's face.
Could she say that it was because she didn't like him being with other women that she had done all kinds of evil in the harem to punish his concubines? Could she say that it was because she was afraid that he would be fascinated by other women that she had kept causing trouble just to keep appearing in front of him?
Could she say that when he was first injured for her, one of the reasons she had gone to her sister was to avenge him, so she had pretended to be the jade - flute young master and then been deceived and taken to the northern cold region? Could she say that in fact, she didn't want to provoke him by forcing the palace, but besides getting involved herself, there was no other way to save him and see him?
Could she say that in fact, she had never been able to let him go, and even if it meant being an enemy of the whole world, she would still stand with him? Could she say that she was very angry when she saw her sister damage his eyes, so it was the new and old hatred that made her kill her sister? Could she say that in fact, when she came back to life last time, she had wanted to start over with him?
She really wanted to speak, but suddenly found that she had never told him her true feelings.
He slowly walked forward, groped his way back to the golden throne, and stared blankly out of the palace hall. He whispered, "Go. I'll give an explanation to the world."
Ji Feiyu still stood there motionlessly. He softly recited, "Empress Ji Feiyu of Yong, having seen the error of her ways, sacrificed herself to save the emperor. Her merits and demerits will be written by later generations."
Ji Feiyu stood there stupidly. She probably understood what he meant. He thought she had come back this time just because of the situation, so he was going to let her go again. But why didn't she feel as relaxed as she had imagined? Instead, she felt extremely heavy.
Just then, the mighty general led a large army into the palace. The distant noise and the familiar bugle calls resounded throughout the imperial city.
Yong Yaxuan said, "Hurry up and go. The people coming to rescue the emperor are here. If you don't go now, you'll really have to sacrifice yourself for the country."
Yes, Ji Feiyu had come in with the people who forced the palace. Committing a crime against the superior, she would surely be sentenced to death. But how many people would know that the mighty general was actually let in by her and Yu Chi Yanyan? Zhan Shan was also gone, and Lin Zhiran was dead. There was no one to testify for her. She was afraid that she would be beheaded by the angry soldiers before she could even express her position.